its been a long while since ive wrote whats really on my mind....the recent entries relates more about my day, etc etc.....

watching 'American History X' got me thinking....it was a really impactful movie....i do love watchin movies that gets me thinking...it reminds me of things that at time i forgot....thats probably why i hate watching horror movies...coz u dont really gain anything from it....except being fearful of everything...stupid!

on a more serious note...after watching 'American History X', i kept questionin why is there such divisions among us mankind...it seems that the difference that sets us apart is our culture and the colours of our skin...and that prevails to make a great difference among us.....sometimes i question god..'why did he make us different in skin colour?'...if we were all of one coloured skin..there would not be a problem of racism....didnt god realize that there was goin to be a problem when formin us in different skin colours?....

but, it couldnt be a problem to blame god for....arent we the one to blame for makin bariers dividing ourselves?....but why?....what is the difference between a white person and a black person? can't we appreciate that both are very much alike?...doesnt a white person have a heart like a black person do?....doesnt a black person have a pair of hands alike a white person?....the only visible difference is the colour of our skin....

are we that shallow in not accepting another person that is of different race?...thinkin back....whilst playin futsal with some friends...the racial differences proved to be prevailent....the 16 chinese guys there were pickin on 4 indian guys on the court....it wasnt because the indian guys were playin dirty..or anything......for the simple reason that the indian guys were leading in the game...it had stirred racist comments amongst the chinese guys....being able to understand the language spoken among them..i was disgusted!!....how could a person that has every capacity to think, set themselves apart because of the racial differences?...stupid shallow minded people...

its probably our ancestors to blame....the older generations had relentlessly feed us with that crap about how we are so very different from another race....and how we should marry amongst our own race and multiply fruitfully....its probably their way of consipiring to take over the world..haha...its alike hitler's dream of killing every jew on the face of the world...and even he could not achieve it.....all this bullshit!!....

the fight for equality among all races has not been won....we have indeed evolved throughout centuries....and it took the sacrifice of great visionaries before the revolution happened....however, sadly we are just half way there....the difference doent only stop at racism...it does go on to many other things....we humans are just very divided...

i do myself admit that im alittle racist....god forbid....but its true....i cannot answer why....im not racist in the means that i dislike a coloured person or anything....for example, its just at times, i feel insecure when approach by a foreign man or a coloured person...im make to believe that a coloured man is more harmful than a chinese person....but in reality, the last person that mugged me was indeed a chinese man.....the local media has always seem to portray a coloured person as a suspect of criminal wrongs....and subconsciously, we have already made up our minds on them when indeed a hand full of them are the real wrong doers....

if only mankind could see beyond that little colour differences....if only the incident in Jasper, Texas didnt occur...James Byrd Jr could be very much alive now.....it has taken visionaries like Martin Luther King to step up and pay the price for unity....its probably our time to step up and step out of the difference that has divided the nation for centuries....and pray that one day, the wall of biasness and diffences are are demolish...

as it was said in the movie...its always good to end with a quote... since someone has already said it best, and if you cant top it, steal from them and go out strong..