It has been about a month and half, since I last ended my job. A month's off
was more than sufficient, and since break-time was over, it was time for
job hunting. Browsing daily through jobstreet, in hopes for the right position
seems more like an addiction than a need.

And not long before, a reply came in the form of a call, indicating a time
and place for an interview. There was nothing more to it,
than just the 29th Floor, on Monday.

The interview went well, but to no avail, and I was less than keen to take a job
on my first interview. A different interview came no later, and that too wasn't right.

The days seems to intensify, as I remained hunting for that 'one' right job for
me. Though I continued praying, I was too concern on landing a job, that I
relied more on myself than depending on Him. It was more,
'God give me this, and give me that', and lacking dependancy on him,
but taking it all up by myself.

I went to an interview with an Advertising Agency today, and though this was
what I was looking for, I was told that the position I wanted was not available.
It did burdened my heart, and questioned my faith. I asked God 'why?'.
To be honest, I wished they would've offered me
that position there, and then. But I guessed they just didn't.

That kept me on a low, as hours past, and I sat down hoping something
would materialise. I needed to do something, hence I sought to reading blogs to
occupy time, and as I read
a friend's blog and the testimonies of his life, I begin to remember the
faithfulness of God, and his ever-awesome plans to bless our lives. It does takes
time, as God cooks up an amazing miracle for his children.

Though I knew all this, I guess theories, and practicals are very different things.

This made me realise that I have wanted things my way, and there was no absolute
surrender. I now stand back, giving way to Him who knows better than I do.

For at the end of the day, His ways are higher than mine, and a miracle is around
the corner, waiting to happen. And as the pressure mounts, and the worries falls,
I know that He will be there, to point at the end, to show a light up ahead.


**there is always a light up ahead.