a symphony to melodious reawakenings.



reawaken....


something strucked....everything seems clear....its as if ive awaken from this bad bad dream....everything seems to slowly fall to place....i can actually see what is happening.....its scary...but somewhat enlightening....my life seem to have been reawaken....

confused?....this time around...you wouldnt be able to understand what im writing...its because its something personal to me...im not goin to share the details.....but it seems like i have been in asleep for a long time....too too long....

somehow...it feels like i have not been myself lately....ive reawaken....thank god.... :)

im back...this time for good......enjoy :)


make the difference!!!


class today was the real bummer!!...had a long 6 hour class of agony...and the lunch break didnt do any good...was held by the weather...so a couple of us decided to get lunch at the canteen downstairs..bad idea!!....had nasi lemak and an ice-lemon tea.....i paid the canteen lady with a rm50...and she return back with rm45.... 5 ringgit for the meal?? thats absurd!!....it wasnt right!!...the nasi lemak hadnt the real 'lemak' in the rice....it was pure white rice....and for amount i was payin...it just didnt seem right.....i went back and asked her about the pricing...she had mistaken and charged extra...thinking i had taken some chicken with the rice....thank god!..she gave me an extra 2 ringgit back....haha....at least thats a more reasonable price... :)

it didnt get better after lunch....the whole time in class..i just felt like dozing off to sleep....haha...if only the chairs in the classroom had head-rest....probably half of the class would be sound asleep then...that would be great....??

church yesterday was great....ps.kenneth spoke about making the difference....what caught me was when ps.kenneth explained about joseph....joseph endured many things....he was sold as a slave...and then thrown into prison for something he did not commit.....however, god had a greater plan for him...a plan beyond his understandin....it took joseph all the sacrifice before he could govern egypt....god was actually training joseph for something he could never imagine...

ps.kenneth gave another example...ps.kenneth explained that mel gibson would not have made the movie 'the passion of christ' if wouldnt for all his earlier b-graded movies...if mel gibson had not started as a b-grade actor...he wouldnt have become the director of the most talked-about movie...the movie 'the passion of christ' could be one of the best evangelistic ministry of this century....the movie was so controversial that everyone was talkin about it....the critic didnt matter...nothing mattered to mel gibson...he just wanted to tell people about christ...and what better way than to make a movie!!....people everywhere were rushin to watch the movie...even in countries that were of other religion...

ps.kenneth spoke that if mel gibson didnt had started as a b-graded actor...he wouldnt had made the movie....and despite his sins in the past...who are we to judge?....god has indeed a plan for everyone....it just takes us to submit to god's plan...i am very curious of god's plan in my life....its in his time that everything would seem clear.... :)

its time to stop writing....there liverpool v arsenal match is starting soon....so till i update again with the good news that liverpool won...here's what i remember from pastor kenneth

'do not make A difference.....make THE DIFFERENCE..'
enjoy....xphilx


and then....we multiplied....


had just got back from futsal with the power group fellars....it was fun.....power group today was relaxed...we didnt do much..we differ from the norm..and headed for dinner at 'chatters'....a group of over 20 guys having dinner together can be very noise.....plus another power group was there...a 'girl' power group...haha....but we were alot more noise than them....hehe.....that was our last dinner together before our multiplication....which is spliting into 3 other groups...

we discuss alot of issues regarding church over dinner...we voiced our views towards what we see in church...and what we wanted to see happen....it was great...this is by far one of the best power group sessions....after our dinner....we headed back to jeffery's place....there, those monkeys started to play the 'naruto game' on the ps2....looked fun....

soon after...we left for futsal.....futsal has become a routine each friday....haha....great!...

tomorrow is gonna be a long day...ive got christmas@ thepark's briefing...dont know if im goin yet...if i can wake up la...hehe.....then ive gotta rush to college for cf....we're gonna be celebrating christmas in college by singin carrols...and we've got the childrens from 'little precious home' comin over to the college...we're gonna bless them with gifts and all...hope that lil' chris would be happy with my gift for him....haha.....

anyway...with so much to do tomorrow..ive gotta get to bed soon...!!....enjoy..


those were the days


nothing much happened lately...just the usual.....had a good mamak time with my high-school friends yesterday...we remembered of all those stupid things we did during high school...and heck did we do alot of dumb things...we now look back and smile at things.....we were all young then..but all tried to pass for a matured person....i guess we weren't then....

lookin back at things...we were really mischievous then....one particular dumb act can i not forget ever....i and most of the guys in the class were kicked out for not doin our work...we made a huge commotion before leaving...we were to stand outside the class until the end of that session....as boys are..we decided to do something stupid....we came out with this ingenius idea of doin a mexican wave for the rest stucked in class...decided to be alittle funny....we all squat silently outside class....all waiting for the sign from a friend indicating to start the wave....ahh...wasnt long before the sign was flagged...we took turns to jump and shout....we made a superb wave....probably the best mexican wave you ever seen done by 10 boys....

yes..indeed we we good...that led to the teacher that had initial kicked us out of class...to even kick us out of the corridor....man!...we hadnt a place to stand now!!....what the heck..!..we moved our way to the canteen and had a drink...not long, a dicipline teacher pass our way...we were directed to go back to class.....we were abit confuse there!!....our class teacher kicked us out...and the dicipline teacher kicked us back in..!!....GREAT! WHATEVER!....im goin back to class....we ended back in class...and was asked of our return....our class teacher gaved up....and adjourned to the staff room...deserting the class of her duties....she walked straight out without any contemplation.....we drove her up the bloody wall for sure!!....

its abit funny ehh?...hehe....its stupid...but at least theres something to remember about school...at least it wasnt some boring time during high school!...now that we look back...we know it was stupid..but we arent gonna start regreting now....we were please with our work..although it was wrong....what can i say??.......the mexican wave was a crowd pleaser...haha....i do pity the teacher...and if ms.zaini is reading this blog....yes..we are truely sorry for our actions...but it does bring fond memories doesnt it?...at least there is something to remember us by.... :)

yeap..now that ive established that i was abit mischievous...i am different now....a changed man...haha.....its funny how time passes so fast....with a blink of an eye...i'll probably be thirty already....weird!

anyway..back to the story....yeap!...we had a good time at the mamak sharing our experiences during our high school.....tommorow would be the last day the whole power group would be together....before we multiply into 2 power group....its great to see that the power groups are growing rapidly.....

christmas is exactly a month away...can't wait for the season.....wished m'sia could snow...maybe once, god?...hehe.....miss the snowing bit...had not played in snow for 8 years already!!...thats a long time!.....i missed my christmas in the states....that was the best christmas.....hope to have another chance to spend another christmas there.... :)

anyway...ive gotta go to bed....hope that when i open my eyes...it would be snowin outside.....impossible?....yeah...haha...... enjoy the season! xphilx


that one without a 'title'


im glad to say that im back to sleeping normal again...yeah!!...was able to sleep yesterday nite...and boy, did i slept long....

after the 2weeks break for holiday...classes are already startin to pack up my week...had nite class on monday...and will be havin another nite class tomorrow...those nite classes starts at 6.30pm till 9.30pm...i know, it should be called evening classes..but to me...its already nite anyway....since when did a full-time student in a private college attends nite classes??...absurd..thats what that is!....after tomorrow's class, will have wednesday off..but also gotta study!...then back to class on thursday and friday...at least those classes are in the morning....and a saturday off...and yes..back to classes on sunday....thats the rough idea of my schedules for classes....crazy eh!!....

anyway..everything is comin up....firstly...there's christmasATthepark2004....its on the 5th of December....it would be held at the sunway lagoon amphitheater....its gonna be a blast!......next there's the PLANET SHAKERS CONFERENCE...its on the 1st-3rd of DEC.....its held at the sunway convention center...i would probably be there for the nite concerts...since ive got classes during the day....haha...ill see ya'll there!

ok..ill update more later.....enjoy~



christmas happens in your heart!



"christmas isn't christmas till it happens in your heart..
somewhere deep inside you is where christmas really starts
so give your heart to jesus.. you'll discover when you do...
that is christmas..really christmas
for you..."


-a christmas sound-

enjoy...



wow...after 3 days of not being able to really sleep...i slept today at about 9pm...and just got up...(its now 12.30am)...alright..its not really long...but proves to be a very essential 3 and a half hours of sleep...im getting better....

the irony about all this is that, i felt really alive yesterday..despite being able only to sleep for 3 hours....i slept at about 6am yesterday..and got up about 9.30am..getting ready for college....for some reason i wasnt really tired during class....not until the 3 session....that was nice... :)

after experiencing all this...i really am grateful for being able to sleep....you would really treasure your sleep once you find yourself not being able to doze off whenever you wanted to.....somehow, this sleeping problem had actually enlighten me..through both my perceptions on life and my spiritual walk....i grew from this experience.....

amazing grace...im reminded of the song...and its significance....

Amazing grace!
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost, but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears relieved.
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils and snares
I have already come;
'Tis grace hath brought me safe thus far
And grace will lead me home.

The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures;
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.

Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
and mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.

When we've been there ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun,
We've no less days to sing God's praise
Than when we've first begun.....

amazing lyrics!!....somehow, i had forgotten this song for so long....before, this song was just another old christian song to me....it hadnt any significance....i never place any real thought to the words.....but it has really touch my life now....the words bring tear to my eye...its just too real.....

christmas is on its way...the day of birth of our lord, king and saviour.....i have the feeling this year that this christmas would be really impactful and personal...everything has changed....what i couldnt see before is unveiling....its becomin clear....

its time to stop writing...but before i end this one...i would quote something said before..

'..may the suffering of the lamb receives his rewards...'


enjoy... :)



i need to sleep!!


its 4.17am...and i cant sleep.....it had been like this for the last 3 days....i stay in bed...tossing and turning...and just cant get my mind to stop......my mind just cant shut down....my eyes hurt...my back hurts...i need some rest....but its not happening.......this feels like insomnia...

arrrhhh.....ill probably be a walkin zombie if i dont get enough rest......im goin crazy.....i need to sleep.....oh, god....please help me get rest...!!.....


the christmas spirit...


are you already getting into the CHRISTMAS SPIRIT !!!....this time around...christmas would be very special...i just get this feeling....haha....im in a mood for this christmas season... JESUS is the REASON for the SEASON.....

its christmas time again.....yeahh!!......enjoy :)



stayin home too much can really drive me nuts..!!.....had been stayin home alot during this holiday....hadnt gone out for about 4 days...at all...not even to get food or anything....just stayed at home for the whole 4 entire days...

today i got a headache...its probably because of me staying home too much...was too bored...and crowded with assignments...had to take a nap at about 7pm...the pain was unbearable.....after waking up at 9pm...everything seems to be floating....i felt so dizzy....

that was the cue....ive gotta get out and get fresh air..!!....decided to go to joe's place...my mind was blank while driving...could not concerntrate.....thank god i didnt get into any mishaps... :)

we had chinese for supper....i couldnt finish the fried chicken i ordered....just didnt have the appetite....but i could drink alot....drank quite abit tonite....ok..not like alcohol and all...just cincau and chinese tea...felt like a camel....

am still quite dizzy...but ive still got assignments to finish....dont know if i can go on reading the cases...would probably head for bed soon....my mind just can't function...

had stopped by starbucks on the way back from puchong...they were closing...met my supervisor...had alittle chat with him about the on-goings of my used to be workplace....really miss working there....it was so much fun....the place brings so much memories....i love starbucks...

had been listening more to jazz...all this rockin bands are getting boring....the mood has shift....its JAZZ time....had been listening alot to guys like frank sinatra, louis armstrong, ray charles, nat king cole, norah jones...etc etc....its more suiting now....than those heavy stuff.....jazz is in the house....!!haha....

its time to stop....starring at this computer screen is making me feel alot more dizzy....lets pray i get well soon...till then....enjoy!



monkeyman.....


when you've got nothing to write....you draw......and when u don't know what to draw....you draw things like monkeyman....haha....crap!....gotta get a better program to draw....can't do much when you are using paint to draw....sorry la..i do not have photoshop to play with yet...gotta go get more programs for this computer....boring!!

enjoy .....



what a cutie eh...haha....had watched 'cheaper by the dozen'...and she was in it!!...haha...

had no inspiration to write these couple of days.....dont know what to write at all...thats why there's so many pictures being posted up.....my mind is just blank....

till i figure what to write...enjoy the picture of piper perabo.... ;)



the new place...


this is how my room at the new place looks....yeap..i sleep on the upper bunk of the double-deck bed...this room is too small to put 2 single beds.....ive gotta share room with my bro since there aint enough room...haha.....

enjoy....



dumb fun time !!


guys can be so dumb fun at times!!.....haha...had just got back from futsal and dinner....during dinner at 'ming tien'..we started to challenging each other to do stupid things....it started with a dare to eat a super spicy taiwanese hotdog.....and yes...i had ate one..but that was before all the challenging started....i first ordered one to have a taste....ive always love spicy food...but this super spicy hotdog did justice to its name....after eating half of the sausage..my eyes was tearing...it was too spicy for my tongue and lips to handle....

that was the start to a long, an hour and a half of pure dumb challenges.....a friend decided to take a challenge to go for the exact super spicy challenge....he didnt make it...he too teared.....another friend thought to himself that the sausage could not be as spicy as we've describe..and he too went for one.....he did not tear..but heck did he sure went for alot of ice....the main challenge came down to having edwin take 2 of this super spicy taiwanese sausage without having any drink for 4 minutes...if he could hold his tongue's desire for a drop of crucial h20...he was 'the man'......and yes...he became 'the man'...without having to drink anything for more than the 4 minutes promised...respect!...

another challenge also took place during dinner...it was to hold a mouth full with coke for a minute....i took that challenge....i must admit that it was tough....having coke in your mouth without swallowing wasnt easy....the gas in the coke expanded..and so did my mouth....but..i did win the challenge....nothing really to be proud about....

is it really to impress the other guys, showing that you are capable of withstanding any challenges put before you?....girls do think that way...but..it is different for guys....we take it as a differing view all together....its all in the name of dumb fun.....it is actually really fun and comical to see a friend take up stupid challenges....never would you do such acts if not for challenges...would you drink 20 bottles of vitagen all together if not for a challenge ?...

guess...maybe its abit silly and stupid to take up these challenges....but really...its a guy thing...its just pure fun.....its probably one of the great questions that this world cannot answer......but for all the guys in this world(except the sissyfied ones)...heck...you only live once.....stupidity and dumbness of others are our humour....lets give the world some of this humour....haha.......enjoy



its the first day of hari raya...just got back from visitings.....would be playin futsal later @7..hahaha.....the mood is right to kick some balls...?...haha....

ive not started reading my cases that are due...have to start today or else..gonna get smack in the rear end....arrrhhhhhh....

read..read..read.!!!!.........im goin crazy...enjoy


blah blah blah?


had slept @5am today morning....was busy watching 'the terminal'....its arguably one of tom hank's best movie...besides 'you've got mail'....a great movie...and now a personal favorite.....the movie had a good concept...and is hillarious.....good stuff!!!

am currently listening to usher&alicia's 'my boo'....another good stuff....just woke up an hour ago...am so hungry now.....don't really know whats the plan for today..but church is certain for the evening...

been playing futsal too often lately...had played 2 days in a row already...taking a break today...and i'll be back on the pitch tommorrow.....wow...just too much soccer for a week...leg sores!!

anyway...gotta go get lunch......ok.....enjoy


the good old room...



my room at the old place...alright..its abit messy...coz i took the pic when we were packing to leave....as you can see..there is no bed there..coz they were all already given away.....will be posting my new room pics soon...till then..enjoy the pictures of the room that contains loads of memories....



check out this year's christmas@thepark2004 ...see ya there


its depavali....!


hadnt been updating for awhile....ok....first...had went up to genting last monday...this time around..it was 7 guys and 7 girls....as expected..the guys were more constrain and couldnt really do what they wanted.....the trip was intereresting....but could not be compared with the last trip when all guys went up alone....the guys just went hysterical during our boys outing.....

had already got a tv for the room....its a good sony 21' wega....very nice....with surround sound....haha.....gotten it for a good price.....the room now needs a tv table...hadnt the cash to get one yet...but probably be next month...mind to get me one?..hehe

its depavali.....so all my indian friends...a very blessed depavali.....lets keep the 'tanni' session low....enjoy

had been listening to a particular song.....'the wonderful cross'- by chris tomlin and matt redman....its a meaningful song....have you heard the song? you better do!...cause when i say its good, ITS GOOD!...haha

had watched 'the incredibles' yesterday nite.....compared to the rest of pixar's productions...it is considered the best from them.....the incredibles was just simply superb...its probably worth more than the rm9 i paid....hope to watch the movie again....had watched the movie with the rest of the 8 monkeys....

astro would be installed today!..yeah!!!.....had not installed astro since i moved here...would be transfering my astro dish and decoder here......hahaahah.....futsal!..will be playin later in the evening....its a public holiday today...and i just feel relaxed.....hadnt felt this way for awhile....life hasnt been at its peak lately...but its getting there....

ok..thats all for now folks.....stay the same...dont change....all my little monkeys......enjoy


enlighten me..


everything seems to be fading....is it me? is it you? ....i need a voice from within.......everything is out of perspective...how do i depict something i cannot understand....i need a voice from within...enlighten me....




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peejay...we have a problem


there so many things goin wrong with this blog...so if you dont see any pictures...or everything is everywhere...pls do bare with it for awhile...probably would be changin the theme if everything goes wrong......so till everything is settled out.....enjoy



since moving here from puchong...everthing is alittle different...ive not been to subang for awhile...its further from here..and im tired of driving that far....had been spending more time with my long-lost high schoolmates...had met up with them more, since most of them live about 5minutes away....

liverpool had defeated after a long 6 match...was abit dissapointed..plus the goal by darren anderton wasnt any good at all....arrrhhh.......had bought the hbo's award winning mini-series..'angels in america' on dvd....had watched the first half hour...its pretty ok....would save the rest of the show for my 2 week long holiday break startin next week...finally ive got some days off from college...gotta use that time to catch up on what ive missed during class....so much..and too little time...exams are days before christmas....so gotta start preparing.....study study study....

had looked around for a tv set during the evening....probably would be getting one by tommorrow....its gonna be a panasonic Tau....pretty nice and pricee....haha....another good electronic for the room....perfect!....

please bare with all the grammar and linguistic mistakes....had been rushing while posting lately...hadnt much time to update with so many things on my mind....so till i clear my mind of all this rubbish......enjoy....


stupid horror movies


watched 2 stupid horror movies- the grudge and one missed call.......wasted rm16.......

bush won his second term in office....crap!.....he'll probably take a long vacation again like he always does....

its crap when you are stuck at home!!!

out for the nite, and headed to up-town nite market....wasted another rm3 on keropok lekor...

summary of what ive to say.....

enjoy....


ohio determines..president!


the race is tight...who will win this presidential elections??...bush is the the projected winner for his homeland, texas...whilst kerry is projected to get the votes of major cities like new york, washington dc..etc etc....however, it all tights down to ohio...if bush would win ohio..he would get the 270 votes needed to win this campaign....

bush has projected to have won 28 states..while kerry has projected 20 states in his favour....the results should be out by tommorow..and it will determine who's the next president for the next 4 years....

im up for kerry...coz i just feel he would make a better president than that joker, bush....the war in iraq was for no real reason....they have not find any weapons of mass distruction yet..and that was the sole purpose of the US for invading iraq...oh yeah....and deliving the iraqi people from the evil hands of sadam...from what i see..they were better off then than now...people dying for no reason...stupid!....its the gas in that land that really prompt the war...bush wanted the oil....but we'll never know if thats the reason...as the saying of law..'even the devil knows not the intention of man...'....but, god knows...and thats good enough...

had no astro fixed up yet at the new place..so, i cant tune in to the elections...gotta just check it online....have to go out and do something tonight....had not gotten out for a long while...so till we know who is president...im outta here.....enjoy



its has been two days since i moved here...and everything seems to be settling down....my room has already 60% completed...but theres still a few furnitures here and there to get...had already got a curtain for the room..but it has not been installed yet...the monkeys at ikea had forgot to include screws that was suppose to screw the curtain railing to the wall....so, gotta go back tommorrow to get the screws and some other things....had been to ikea for 3 days consecutively...bought loads of stuff from there...mainly becoz its cheap, nice and creative...will be there to get my tv table soon...am currently lookin for a 21'inch tv set....hoping for a sony tinitron..but its kinda expensive....so we'll see what i get....

had not been to college for 2 days...had been sending my mom everywhere to get the needed things for the new home....was out the whole afternoon today to one utama and ikea....am so tired now....had watch 'average joe' on tv just now...hadnt astro fixed yet here..so stuck to free tv for the week...arrrhhh....anyway..the show was pretty good...really makes me wonder if the girl would either choose an average joe..or the pretty boy.....though the average guy does not possess the perfect physical features..he seems very sincere...a very nice guy....just so straight and blur....but trully a gentleman....thats so unique...for ur info..im NOT gay....just was impress by his sincerity....we'll see who would the girl choose in next week season finale...

gotta go sleep now....have alot to catching up to do for my studies...exams are in december....gotta study study study!!......enjoy







tired !!


had been shiftin everything to the new place today...its just so tiring....got nearly everything here...but there are some left at the old place..will be goin there tommorrow to get em....bought the bed from ikea today...fixing up the bed ourselves was a real hassle...so many screws and all....

had did nothing except moving things from there to here....had to miss futsal...unpackin was another issue....will be out to buy some stuffs for the room tommorrow...it'll probably be a long day again....enjoy


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