attended church of acts yesterday and today morning...and as expected, a couple of people from my home church are not satisfied with that move...for the love of god, im just attending another church!!!...cannot understand those genius minds...

acts church was great....they are starting a program 'flatFISH' that would try and penetrate the communication world for christ...they are planing for a magazine to be out monthly...and they are also going to do web-tv for christian sermon..etc... im hoping to be apart of this movement...

its so true that every creation made by man are from god..for the devil cannot create but could only destort...so, the media should be used for the extension of his kingdom...anyway, the name flatfish actually means F-our L-oafs A-nd T-wo FISH(flatFISH)...pretty cool name ehh....

im prayin about moving from my current home church to acts church...i want to be apart of the vision of the church...as to use media and creativity to reach the unreached...my current home church do not seem to have such interest...its more an adults church...accordingly, the sermons preached cannot be related by the young people....many do not see, but most of the youths in the church are there for socializing purposes...the youth are not excited for god...and that have slowly errode my passion for christ...its true that sub-consciously your passion would die if are not in the right enviroment...i feel as i'm spiritually dying....and i need spiritual food...that is one reason of my undecided move to a new church...

but, i still have to pray about it and see how things goes...i want to be in a generation that will lift jesus high...and i do not want to be left out when a reawakening happens...anyway, the word reawakening actually means revival..according to the oxford dictionary... :o)

work has been good...its getting abit routine...but its fun...haha...thank god i had 2 days off from work...

so, most of the good teams are out of euro...my predictions for the finals are portugal v chec. republic...but most probably portugal is goin to win this competition...im still supporting the greek underdogs...if this actually goes out to win this competition...haha..this will teach a lesson to all those complacent teams like england, france, italy..etc....

work was fun today...somehow i was the victim of a prank....arhhh....but it was much fun anyway...haha...everyone acted so well..while i was counting my cashier cash...i found that i was short of rm60...if this had been true..i would had to pay the for the loss...but, those fellars took the money and acted for about an hour...even my supervisor participated in the prank...she was the most unexpected person to have joined in the fun...anyway, it was fun...it was a really bonding experience with the partners....

tommorow would be fun..coz i only work from 2pm to 7pm...haha...more time to go out....nothing much to write today...so might as well stop here....enjoy

a edited picture of me...haha...i think its pretty cool !!

so, england won ehh....didnt watch the whole match yesterday...was too sleepy to stay up..thought that it was goin to be a boring game...so i went to bed in the 30th minute...crap!!....england equalize and went ahead just before half time....i was probably asleep by then...haha...

the worst part of the day was work...my partner failed to show up for the second time in 2 days...so the cafe only had me and my assistant manager on the floor...during the rush hours...we really did rush!!!...i had to take both orders and make the drink....was so tiring...i didnt even had the chance to sit down and relax...just keep goin from 10am...at least it all came to an end by 3pm...our saviour came...my store manager....she came and we had our very needed helping hand...

after getting back from work..i only had about an hour and a half to get ready to go back to the cafe for a meeting with the rest of the partners...during the meeting, we had the chance to taste the upcomin summer promotional drink for the month of july...can't remember the name...but its some lemon peel frappucino...it dont sound good...definately dont look good....and taste so weird...its the most weird tasting drink yet to be unveiled...so i really doubt that the drink is gonna be a hit....you guys should go ahead and try it for yourself next month.....haha

so the meeting was quite fun...our manager bought us all kfc...so as we whack our chickens..we chatted.....

heard that 'all 4 one' is down in kl...all skool man!! they were once superstar!! but stardom has now fade...and they are now things of the past...no one bothers or are even bothered....thats how life is anyway isnt it....

church camp is comin...its supposedly in august...but dont think im goin this year..its the same speaker as the last...so its gotten abit boring....this speaker from india comes down to the church so often...it feels like he is a regular....so really dont feel like goin to camp this year....but would most probably maybe crash for a day...go for a road trip or something...that would be alittle more adventurous...

somehow, more often than not..most people are happy to involve with the worship team...being a contributor to the worship is definately something to be happy about....however, in our church it is all different...musicians are finding a way to get out of the worship team...and that includes me....worship in this church is relatively different than others...its more like a non-stop-hit....the music goes on and on without stoping....honestly!!...all praise song are linked somehow....we link "king of majesty" to "we wanna see" and linking it again with "now that your're near"...its all linked....we just go on and on...without stopping...and that leads to the beat getting faster and faster.....so it looks as though we are rushing to catch a bullet train or something...even the worship songs are sang a beat faster....

im not trying to complain...but being a back-up singer that i am...i sing and sing...and sing...without cathing a breath....thats hard!.. always hoped that they could stop alittle more...take time to worship and not look like rushing it through...most musician are of the same opinion....guess that why we all feel like leaving.....we feel that our worship team are just trying to look professional and has neglect the substance of worship....but still, thats just my opinion...and everyone is entitled to theirs...

anyway...enjoy readin....i better stop...before unpleasant things are said..haha....

wow...its been awhile since ive last post...been so busy since started work..and so so tired....ive practically slept right after work...could not go on not sleepin...just need rest to energize me...need all the sleep i can get to work the following day...

ive even skip my usual sunday futsal last week to sleep...ive been pulled back to work even on saturday....so ive only had the sunday off last week from work...but this week would be better...my schedule for work is less..with more breaks....that would be great...

work has been great...im more attach now to all my partners...they are all nice people which i joke with everyday...haha....i love the workin enviroment there....its a happy place...very cool and relax...but often times busy...especially during the lunch and dinner hours...arrhh...its hard to cope with so many orders.....but ive manage to keep my cool and just relax whilst workin....it helps...so that i dont panic when there are countless orders comin in...

so..sunday's worship was pretty ok...actually got the chance to do a solo...was actually quite nervous for some reason....really didnt want to sound bad or else....arhhhh.....but...it was good...

today..after work..ive met up with rohan...later joel and jason came by....then came edwin and the rest...had a pretty good time...got back about 2am....but i slept before goin out...so that would keep me up for awhile!!!..hehe....and ive gotta watch the england v croatia match in about 15 minutes time....hope owen can make a come back and score...all this hype of rooney is startin to piss me off...the media is makin rooney look like he's the king of the world...all he did was scored some easy goals!!....whats the fuss all about...arhhh!!

so, im gonna work at 9.30am tommorow....really have no idea if im gonna wake up!!....by the time i sleep....it wont be long before its time for work....but everythings good...i love my work for now!!...haha...

ohh...there is a story ive just remember and must share...there was this guy that wanted to a lift to a specific destination...havin no car at home, he called his friend and asked if by any chance they were headin in that dirrections....being a kind friend...he offered to take him to the designated destination....however, as every malaysian are...we are always alittle late and unpunctual....thus, this friend came 20minutes late....however, this guy was actually pissed that his friend that has kindly offered him the ride was not punctual...he refused to enter the car...and headed back to his home stating that he would have himself go his destination himself.......so what is the lesson to learn here??

what was the guy thinking?? the friend which had already agreed to fetch him out of good will is confound to the guy's terms?? a reasonable person should be thankful that another has already keenly offered to fetch him....and not be pissed that he was alittle late....so this is a lesson to everyone that havin yourself ask for help..please for gods sake be thankful !!! anyway, this is a true story...

alright...enough crapping for today....enjoy....its soccer time!!!

'with great powers comes great resposiblity'..this is some quote from the movie spiderman...and yes!!..that is what said is definately true....i was apppointed to be incharge of the cashier today..and it was my first time...so it was abit scary....managing with all those cash wasnt easy...a difference of even 10 cents can come into light by the store manager...so the cash in the register must be exact as what it is supposed to be as stated by the manager's computer....so, i really checked 3 times before i return any balance change to the customer...it was really exausting...

so many times ive forgot to put whip cream on a cream frapuccino...arrrhhh...theres so much to remember...but it has been a pretty exciting experince...got to do more now compared to the last couple of days...learned alot and now is given alot of resposibilities....im now workin alike the full-time partners...im workin from 9am-5pm....about 5 days a week....my manager seem to be calling me back...she wanted me to work on sundays..but, duh...of course not...gotta go to chuch...but i dont mind workin so many days..

its a whole lot of fun....its the one job i actually like doing...and really dont mind stayin back after my shift to help out...i dont even get paid after my shift is over..but its really fun....the partners there are all nice and very co-operative....even my manager is so cool...she is like our everyday friend...dont really treat her as a manager...she would ask me to do some errands...but i can reject if i wanted to...and plea with her for another simplier errand...thats how cool she is...haha....

so england plays switzerland tonite...the english better win ehh...or else..gotta say tata.... and hey...liverpool has a new manager...he was unveiled today....and he is non other than the ex-valencia coach..rafael benitez...haha...after what he taken valencia to...he should do good in liverpool...and liverpool will dominate the english league....and will win the champions league next season....im definately hoping that cisse will come this season...!!

gotta go out tonite...have not been out alot since ive started work....so, enjoy tonites soccer....we'll see if england make a comeback...well hopefully!

its been 3 days since i started work...and i must say that "its darn fun !!"...unless im asked to wipe the windows..or mop the floor..or clean the dishes..or cleaning other people's mess.....other than that, its all good ..haha...

learn all the techniques to brew coffee and how to make cold beverages...if u ever worked at starbucks, you'll know that it is as easy as ABC to make a blended frappucino..(yeah..thats how its spelled!!)....its very much a joke the amount of money you would spend to get a cup of frappucino...anyway, ive tasted a couple of the drinks...and the current one that is on promotion- ice shaken tea,lemon passion is gooood!

theres this funny incident that happened today at work..i was making this ice shaken tea for a customer...he came in complaining that the last time he had one of those drinks, it tasted like some cough syrup....then he ordered the promotional drink....and somehow, whilst i was making, i forgot to put in one of the main ingredients...the sweet syrup...it was after i offered him the drink that i realize what was missing....and the look on his face...wow..classic!!...he must have thought that it tasted that way...somehow, he manage to finish the whole grande cup of ice shaken tea without the sweet syrup...cool!!..i keep the whole incident to myself!!...definately dont want to get boot after 3 days of work...haha....

so, was watching the england v france match a couple of days back...was happy that the english lost....their playin were crap!..their goal by lampard was crap!!...the english did not attack well...throughout the whole game, the french played a better game...it would be a pity if they had loss the match...zidane made a fantastic comeback...haha...and serve the english right!...the blunder made by gerrard was bad...but, he is still one of the best on the field...go LIVERPOOL players!!

so, we will see if everthing goes well for england..i have this feeling that they might be send packing...even for portugal!...if the greeks would win another match and draw the 3th match...its almost certain they are through....so portugal better pray hard!!

anyway...this soccer and coffee mania is driving me nuts...better stop here before i go nuts....enjoy

wow...alright...i started work today...had like a tour today of the place...everything seem quite fine...its pretty interesting to work in such a place...we're encourage to communicate alot...thats great...something fun to do ehh!!....

so gotta get up by 8.30am tommorrow to get to work by 9.30...cant wait to learn how to brew coffee and make some cekap frappacino..is that how its spelled?...sorry ler..i dont remember the menu yet alright!!...anyway..the best part of working here is that i get to wear shorts !!!..technically, its summer season now in the states...so i've got the chance to wear shorts!! yeahhh!!...but i dont think im gonna wear shorts this couple of days...dont want to look crappy for at least one week....hehe..

i think im gonna change the song that is playing soon...its either to a song by her reverie or a bach classical- suite no.3 in d major...thats just one of the greatest classical song ever!!....

fathers day is this coming week...dun really know whats gonna happen..but will wait for the either my bro or sis to plan...haha...

alright...better stop now...gotta go to bed soon...gotta change the time i sleep...orelse im not gonna get up for work tommorow...enjoy!

went for my second interview today...dont really know why is there so many interview when they are just paying me rm4.50 an hour...crap!!....haha...anyway...got the job..and start work this tuesdays...but i have to go in this monday to look around....at least the manager of the place is quite a chick....haha...workin for a chick....thats better than workin for a joker...!!

anyway...after youth cell yesteday..somehow, everyone seems so alive...the guys just didnt feel like going home early....and didnt know where to go either...so, we wasted time just wandering here and there tryin to figure out where to head...took about an hour before we just headed to a cyber cafe nearby...i played until i was dead bored....just playing inorder to waste time....so bored!!

could not wake up for the interview this morning....was too tired...came home last nite about 3-4am...wished i could go on sleeping.....dont really know what im gonna do this afternoon.....maybe go out and get some stuff for myself.....

there's this interesting topic...which most christians cannot answer(or has a hard time answering)....sometimes things which is beyond our control happens...sometime, we hope for a miracle...but it doesnt happen...why??? isn't god listening? doesnt he want to answer our prayers?...isn't he the almighty god that everything is possible for him?

a friend's sister had a baby in her womb....the child had a abnormality....however the parent stand by faith and waited for a miracle for their child....they prayed seeking for god to heal their child...but sadly, the child had passed away just before the mother went into labour.... why didn't god answer the prayer of his children??why did the baby had to go?? was he incapable to perform the miracle on this baby?

somehow...we do question god.....we ask why this?.. and why that? and we do not get the answer...but we know that beyond all circumstance...god has a way ....many times we dont understand...and its beyond our understanding why everything happened....but god do thing in mysterious ways...in ways we cannot understand or comprehend....but he do hear the prayers of his children...he knows what you are goin through....he know what will happen....god is our provider...despite the circumstance that befall....look to him for a better day....he is there always for us...eventhough the circumstances are beyond understanding....

its was glad to hear that the parent of the baby are holding on to faith...they had summited everthing to god...for its not our will be done...but his will.....he would never forsake us...for we are his children....all we can do is believe for a better day....

A PICTURE EDITED USING PHOTOSHOP


finally bought friends season finale on dvd...watched the finale just now...must said that it was a superb ending for a superb show...but didnt really understand everything caused im yet to watch season 10...hope it come out soon on dvd...

went to summit just now to get some stuff done...went to the motorola service center to get my cellphone's software updated...then bought the friends dvd...on my way back..thought i might as well seach for a job...so, i went to starbucks in ioi mall...i filled up the form and im supposed to go for another interview tommorow at 4...gonna work there part time...just four days a week...the pays kinda low..bout rm4.50 an hour...but what the heck..its better than stayin at home to rot...

im off to watch more friends now...maybe write more later or something....

everything has just been quite boring...just didnt feel like working yet...maybe will get a job later next month...thinking of workin part-time...i can't work more than 4 days in a week...got cell on friday...worship practice on saturday...and church on sunday...so this 3 days have to be keep free....its gonna be tough finding a job that could suit my schedule....hopefully can find something soon...

i just dont sleep early nowadays...cant sleep and i dont know why...the earliest i would head to bed would probably be after 3am....and get up at about 12.30pm...pig ehh.?...haha...spend most of the nites just doing computer stuff...like trying to create a flash using 'swishmax'...still trying to figure out how it works...just completed one short 15seconds flash...which only has words....making something move is kinda difficult..gotta draw picture by picture...so just starting slow first....

im still seaching for the friends season 7 boxset to buy...ive already bought season 6 a couple of weeks ago...it takes me like about 3 days to watch the whole season...so im just waiting for the release of the 7 season....dont you think that friends is the best tv comedy ever...their jokes are way better than that of kopitiam...the local productions here makes lame jokes...and god knows who is laughing at them...they look like fools...guess its gonna take another decade before we could reach such standards...coming to think about it..during the p.ramlee period...movies like bujang lapuk and all were pretty good...their jokes were extremely enjoying...seriously! what happened?

another great tv comedy is '2 guys and a girl'...sadly, the show got cancel after season 4....watched 'pulp fiction' a couple of days ago...its not your everyday movie...at the end of the show..you will be like...'whats the story about again??'..seriously..i really dont understand the plot..but its a different cinematic experience...got another of tarantino's movie 'reservoir dogs'...hoping to understand it more than the the last one..haha

was reading some of my ex-girl friend's mail that she send during our break...i feel remorse for breakin her heart..but i knew that i could not go on knowing something inside me was saying no...

breaking a person's heart is one of the worst things that anyone could do...whatmore breaking the heart whom loved us most,Jesus....by our conduct and words..so often we sin without even realizing..

'..as i watched upon as the nails pierced his hands...i grieve and cry...asking whom could commit such an act of nailing my king to the cross...and as i look back at my hand...it was me!!...it was me who nailed him to the cross..it was me?!! how could it be? i would never!!then he replied...for every sin you commit, you drive the nails through my hands....it was you that drove the nails through...not the roman army...it was u!!...'

i am sorry lord for the sins ive commited....and i am truly yours forever....for you are myKING

super stardom !!! arrhhh...everyone wants to be famous...every program on the tv are now reality tv based...too many different competition to gain instant fame....the 'idol' competition which has been so widely recognized, is now contesting in about every country in the world...i won't be suprised even if the middle-east countries that are againsts the states and are watching and supporting the 'american idol'...imagine..during everyother time...the afganistan and iraq people are like, "american yang bodoh ini..datang country saya...suka suka...kasi bomb..."...then whilst watching 'american idol'..they will be saying, "ehh..itu jasmine trias banyak bagus la...american banyak bagus nyanyi nyanyi...tapi..bodoh sikit la....kalau ada chance..saya pun mahu join itu american idol la...saya banyak hope itu idol punya show datang sini laa.."

alright...thats only my interpretation...but what if that really happened somewhere in iraq or afganistan...that would be something to laugh about...coming back to reality...this absession to be the next idol has taken the best of many...i was watching this show 'oprah'..they were interviewing some of the people that really wanted to be a star...they spend thousands $$ trying and be the next big thing...

whats so great being all famous ? its most probable now that anyone can be a star..take for example Mr.William Hung....he is now a international sensation...and you say physically challenged persons cannot be famous in hollywood...guess mr.hung here proved you wrong...dun really know how many of his cds has he sold...but seriously, who in their right mind would buy the cd...he remake other songs..and don't sound good...so much for stardom

we are definately living in a weird world today...its just gonna get weirder...but hey...thats the world alright!...this obsession has set our priorities wrong...its not wrong joining this competitions...but have a grip of reality..and not let yourself indulge in all this fame and stardome...that we lose sight of what is important...the pleasure of this earth is temporary...

haha...im also waiting for the malaysian idol..bet there is many thats gonna make a fool of themselves...to join this competition requires a whole load of guts...its abit of social suicide if you really suck duing the auditions...this ain't america man!!...if u are gonna be the william hung of malaysia...forget it!!..malaysians is most probably gonne think you're an idiot!!...and your social life goes out the door...a few of my friends are gonna enter this idol competition...never heard them sing...but they better not suck...i wish them all the best...

there is other similiar idol programs showing on tv...like audition..whats that ntv7 show..cant remember the name...arhh...ohh yeah..who will win-the malaysian(dunno what lar...superstar or something)....i think those program has proved that malaysian tv lack creativity..all those programs are so bad...they should not be shown at all...and definately not during prime time...can't malaysian programs just speak in english...speaking in bahasa m'sia is making all this show look so bad...and please...be more creative in designing...cant stand this anymore!!!

PLEASE MALAYSIA TV....we need something creative..!!!we dont want sucky local productions anymore !!! PLEASE???

its amazing how god send his son to earth..to die for the sins of man..so all could go to heaven if believed in him...jesus came down as an ordinary man...not more superior or less..just another ordinary person that could feel and have emotions...

but later..he would be rejected by the people and be pesecuted to death...jesus took the pain and shame of man for us all...we often not realize that jesus was an ordinary person...he could also have felt the rejection of the people that had condemn him to death...but the worst feeling was being rejected by his father...god had little choice but to turn his face away from jesus as he hung on the cross...jesus had represented all the sins of this world and beared all the sins on the cross inorder that we can come clean to god...

as he was on the cross...jesus is heard saying 'father,father, why have you forsaken me!!'...the emotion of having a father not being there when jesus need him most is the most emotionally torturing feeling...nevertheless, jesus did not complain for it was not his will to be done, but god will...

however, living our lives today has been a great task itself...with all these new technology...we are indeed growing as time goes by...we failed however to see that we are also living in a generation of sin...if u think about it, it is extremely easy to lead a sinners life... but it takes so so much to live a rightous life...for everything that jesus had endured..we complain and could not live our lives glorifying to him...

some missionaries had once said 'may the lamb receive his rewards for his suffering'...is our life a reward for jesus's suffering? did we live according to his will or to ours? we have failed over and over, generations after generations, to comprehend god's love for us..'for god so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son, that whosoever believed in his should not die but have everlasting life..-john3:16'...but is everything you do..for him?

did we lay our life down? or has the world satisfy our needs?? jesus has not been our first priority ...our generation has indeed turned their backs away from god and choose to take the path that leads to sin...its obvious...we look at the youth..as they slowly turn their backs...look at the news...its all about murder,rape,terrorism,....all negativity....could we say that the suffering endured by our king is of any worth?

the song 'you satisfy' by the desperation band should be the cry of our hearts ---->

All of my shame You erased
You gave me Your beauty in its place
All of my sorrows You exchanged
For a joy that never fades
You are my everything
Everything You are is everything to me

You satisfy me
You satisfy me
With the riches of Your hand
Everything I am is all because of You
You satisfy

All of the things that hold my heart
All of the pleasures of this life
Cannot compare to Who You are
And the treasures of Your love
You are my everything
Everything You are is everything to me

You satisfy me
You satisfy me
And I lay my life down
My trophies and my crowns, all because of You
You satisfy

life is a long winding road...but nothing amazes me more than to know that a friend had taken the blame for my sins...and for this...i am truly amazed...

i decided to change from my xanga blog to this blogger...i felt that i need this change as it was getting kind of boring with the last one...it took me about 3 hours trying to learn how to get everything started...the tough part came when i had to put up the tagboard and the links...thanks to why,yarn? for his advice...

life has been abit different now..exams ended 2 weeks ago...and so i have a 3 months break...it has been 2 weeks into the holidays and i am ridiculously bored...havent done much in the last 2 weeks...hope it gets better...

there was the edge conference last week in fga...i did not attend the conference but did attend the nite concert...it was a 4 day conference..and i was there 3 nites for their concert...'desperation' was a band that was featured...glenn packiam and the team brought a great worship...overall, they are a great worship band...i would highly recomend their cd to everyone...there was this particular song 'rescue' which was really spoke of a reality of life...it goes like this

-jesus, won't you come to my rescue,wherelse can i go
there's no other name by, which i am saved
captured me with grace
and i will follow you

the other band that played on the 3rd nite was 'her reverie'...they are a good band...mellow music which sound best..abit 'juliet the orange' sound...their lead vocals was just amazing..bought their EP..would rate about 4/5...good recording compared to the other local EPs...good work keng and the rest...look forward to seeing you guys perform...

reawakening.blogspot.com was launch on 7JUNE2004...reawakening is made to write of my perceptions of this ever-changing world..

-i was blind but now i see, from the rooftops i will sing
i was bound but now im free...and i know that you are good
-desperation